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When I was dating my last boyfriend, our relationship came to a
standstill. We talked, and he suggested
we take a time-out to think about it. My
boyfriend seemed hesitant about continuing with me and, although we hadn’t had
sex in a while and the relationship was at best lukewarm, I found his
suggestion insulting. It was like he was
breaking up with me but wanting to keep me on the back burner in case he couldn’t
find anyone else. It really pissed me
A few days later, I went out with the girls. I had a few drinks and realized that I had no
more feelings for my boyfriend. He’d
hurt me, I’d lost respect for him, and it was over. I made out with a guy I met at the bar. It was nice to feel like someone was into me. What a difference from my ex!
When he (my ex) eventually called after a couple of weeks, he suggested
we remain friends, and I happily agreed.
I told him that, in a way, I was relieved because I knew he had already
withdrawn from “us” and that we’d reached a point of no-return. I told him that making out with someone else brought
this home to me even more. We could both
Well, to my surprise, he was really offended. He accused me of “cheating”! I didn't think I
was cheating until he said that, and now I am second-guessing myself.
Can you cheat on someone if, in your own mind, the relationship is over? (I think you wrote somewhere that having an
affair was indicative of a marital breakdown.
That’s exactly how I saw it, like our relationship was breaking down and
my boyfriend was ditching me, and that I had every reason to try with someone
But, objectively speaking, on the basis of facts, is my situation “cheating”?
The way I see it is like this: betrayal is a subjective experience that
cannot always be determined on the basis of facts alone.
If you've made an explicit promise to someone and then broken it, that would
be objectively verifiable. But most betrayals occur due to breaking
implicit agreements and promises, and these are not so readily verified.
There are two different points of view to consider. Yours and your ex-boyfriend's.
From your own point of view, as you said, you had "no more feelings”
for your boyfriend so- for you- the relationship was over and, technically, you
cannot betray a relationship that doesn't exist.
But there is also your boyfriend's point of view: was the relationship over
for him, or was he still in it but just "thinking about it"? If
so, he was betrayed, whether you intended to betray him or not, just as you
presumably felt betrayed by his unilaterally calling a time-out.
The truth is: when it comes to subjective experiences- one event experienced
by two different people- there is no one truth. There are at least two.
And, if we are ambivalent or confused, there may be even more.
re: what I said about affairs- a person may have a “reason” to want to look outside
the marriage for satisfaction, but a reason does not make an affair less of a
betrayal, unless of course your partner has already betrayed a promise, even an
implicit one (for example, by abandoning you), which is in fact another way of exiting
My advice: don't get hooked into trying to determine whether you were right
or wrong according to some objective standard about “what cheating is”.
If you want to know the truth, consider everyone’s perspective. Find out
whether and how someone felt betrayed, and the part- if any- you or he played
in that, whether intentionally or not. That, in my opinion, is as close
to the truth as you can get.